My Lucid Dreams

2008-12-10T08:21:00.000-08:00

Obama won the election but I haven’t passed this fucking course yet. ..

Why everyone thinks it is gonna be better for Iran since Obama got the office? LMAO

I am not in mood to make intellectual notes..it is just some random stuff.

Life is going on smoothly. I have learnt a lot. Some hard lessons that brought me into my knees but I rose up again. Fucking hell… was it really worth of my tears and the pain I was causing myself? I just figured out… nothing comes easy… I am just learning not to be the fool I was. I gave up trusting people. There is no need for trust when you are not sharing anything. I will keep my heart for myself… screw the rest.

Just sometimes I am bothered by the fact that how I possibly loved someone who is the unique symbol of assholeness? I am still doubtful whether he helped me afterwards to feel less guilty or he is really a good guy… On the other hands, I could not be so wrong for such a long time... or they say love is blind.. To be honest I really didn’t give him much either...so we are even now?!!

Grey Amsterdam...there are still some lovely stuff in it… some cute smart rugby players(never knew they are making any of them!).. ja ja ja..I am loving it… wish could get more of it..but I am afraid I am gonna fall in love…then it is gonna be the same old story..crying worried Tee!

I am going to see my folks sometime soon ..First wanna see “M”..fucking bastard .. I miss him so much..

Life is merely good.

Thanks people… friends and everyone!

I will dance on the graves of those who make me unhappy…

2008-08-06T13:42:00.000-07:00

I never hated some faceless person so much.. can't help it.... hate that girl.. hate that girl... who is she standing in my place?or .... I was dreaming of something that I never had..
It is gonna be alright.. baby. Adeline keeps telling me..

2008-07-19T08:38:00.000-07:00

I want to wake up and just realize it was a nightmare and he is gonna knock on my balcony door…I just wanna wake up..

It hurts the most not even get to have a decent goodbye... How could he? How could he hurt me so much…maybe I did the same… and I didn’t notice…

I don’t want to hate him. I don’t want to be angry at myself either that I am the one who killed everything gradually...when did he stop loving me? Did he ever love me?

I wasn’t ready for that and I didn’t see it coming…when I saw Meno’s message: “that ıs always easy tee, no acts or articles of love, no constitution... love is like before civilization.. anarchism, nothing to do about that... then in that case u`d better listen Pink Floyd’s two songs: final cut & nobody home..”.. he made me wonder.. yea he is right.. he is so fucking right..

I would have died without Azin… she saved me... oh my, she saved me.

I’ll be fine.. I’ll be fine keep saying that to myself.

FED UP

2008-07-08T14:59:00.000-07:00

I am so stressed with this bloody paper. I have to finish it till 12th....

K:Hey, there is something about Iranian NY times..check it out: Tehran warns west against attack

T:There is always something about Iran on the news... the Midget won't give up the fucking nuke thingy!

I don't know what I am gonna do... it is getting too much..worries of losing "K"..not finishing this fucking master degree...not finding a job ( I had three hard core interviews with Philips..still no avail)..I am already short in money..have to do something.
Everyone is like "girl, don't go back to Iran" there is nothing left there..and I hate to hear those kinds of crap over and over..I fucking miss everything there...

Back to work...politics sucks..being me sucks...I hate Conferences that take a week long...

Nostalgia

2008-03-16T01:03:00.000-07:00

Amsterdam is as gray as ever . I am so fucking empty inside.I am feeling like I am gonna lose the game again. I thought I could rely on what I found here …thinking of all the beautiful things I killed to get here…I am so dead tired of trying all over again...so hopeless…

Quick Update

2007-01-25T02:39:00.000-08:00

Aren't Lebanese people making the very same mistake that Iranians made 27 years ago?
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Is USA really going to attack Iran?
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Will you sleep with any of these guys for 10 million dollars?
• The i.r.a.n.i.a.n Midget
• Kim Jong Il
• Hugo Chávez
• Muammar al-Qaddafi

Blog Tag - 5 things You Didn’t Know About Tee

2007-01-13T12:27:00.000-08:00

Despite it being the equivalent of an e-mail chainletter - it’s a fun meme - and it’s a great way to get to know some folks of the web.

Anyway,I've been tagged ... in a virtual game of BLOG TAG (thanks ,Alireza)

So here is my list of five things you didn’t know about me.

5- When I was in Kindergarten, I always played with the boys because they were more fun than the girls. As a grown up, I still have a lot of guy friends
My childhood playmate was my older brother who loved to bombard my Barbie doll house with batteries and pretend it was Iran-Iraq War. (I really didn't care about that doll house thing just how his sense of destruction got our ass in trouble later, freaked me out!)

4- Streetlights have a tendency to turn off when I walk or drive underneath them. This happens at least twice a month.

3-I am a random kind of person who leads her life on no-plan plan. I believe the best conversation you can ever have is,with a stranger.

2- I start eating hysterically when I am overstressed.

1- My favorite quote is by Arthur C. Clarke: "Once is an accident; twice a coincidence; three times...a conspiracy."

0-I am a good LIAR!

I am woefully behind on my Bloglines, so I have no idea who has done this yet. If you have not been tagged and would like to be, then I tag you. Go!

Random Ramblings

2006-10-10T13:24:00.000-07:00

It seems Iran is getting pretty arabized by its national media. I am so sick of these Arabic clips shown in Iran's National TV. Iran's official language is Farsi and there are some other ethnic groups speaking various languages but you can't find a single Kurdish or Azeri clip on air as much as you get to see these crappy clips that I don't understand a fucking word of them. Yea I am a redneck Turk!
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We'll be living the same shitti life like North Koreans in just less than 10 years. As a totally neutralized citizen, I don't want that nuclear thingy…..Biatch
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I am no expert in all the mess going on here but I can just sense it , we are in deep shit.
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Why don't they have a cute little picture of a hand with the middle finger up in blogger? I could use that a lot.
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It is more likely for you to get the job if you have bigger BOOBS (LIKE REALLY BIG). I ain't talking about hooters; it was a governmental corporation working mostly on public projects…Bunch of assholes…
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It is pathetic I know but I love my single bed even more now!
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I miss "M".
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Connecting the Dots

2006-08-20T23:07:00.000-07:00

Finally the UN supported ceasefire came into effect between the Israel and Hezbollah.
Many just considered Israel's war on Lebanon as a warm up for the US's war on Iran.
Due to Hersh's latest article neo-cons in Bush administration are paving the road for air strikes on Iran's nuclear facilities very sooner than it was expected.

Israel the real winner of thirty three days of war on Lebanon stripped down the Hezbollah from its missiles, the only retaliation option of Iran in case of military action against its nuclear facilities

Iran's self imposed deadline to answer to the incentive package offered by the five permanent members of the UN Security Council plus Germany to close down its uranium enrichment program will be due by August 22.

Iran once branded as the Axis of Evil is performing a new war game in the southern Iran these days; it gives a clear clue about final response of the Iranian government to the UN resolution which is exactly what neo-cons in Bush admin are enthusiastically graving for.

Attacks on Iran will have its own disastrous consequences for security and stability in the region. The very same like Iraq, Iranian people will suffer the outcomes most.

So the stage is already set for the new play in the Middle East, what President George W. Bush, Fox News, and the Washington Times were saying about Iraq three years ago they are now saying about Iran. Meanwhile Iran's government seeks its survival at any cost disregarding what will happen to the hopeless people of this country.

2006-07-21T16:19:00.000-07:00

Should Hezbollah be blamed for sparking the latest violence in the region or Israel for excessive use of force?

All these acts of violence against civilians in Lebanon forces more Muslims in middle east into believing Bin Laden's assertion that the West considers Muslim lives cheap and expendable. This would make them see in a way that three kidnapped Israeli soldiers and several dozen dead Israelis are worth infinitely more to the West than the thousands of Muslims held for years in Israel's prisons, the hundreds already killed in Lebanon, and the eradication of Lebanon's modern infrastructure.

Noticing the numbers of Israeli bombs that have fallen on Lebanese homes, roads, bridges, ports, broadcasting towers, it overshadows Israel's strikes on the offices and rocket launchers of Hezbollah guerrillas, whose capture of two Israeli soldiers triggered the attacks.

Iran can be blamed for so-called promoting instability throughout the region like supporting Hezbollah militias, but is it Hezbollah that is using U.S.-built F-16s, with precision-guided bombs, and 155-mm artillery pieces to cause death and destruction on Lebanon?

This week-old Israeli-Hezbollah conflict is likely to increase the chances of U.S. military action against Iran. This is the beginning of what was a very similar process in the period, between terrorist attacks against New York and the Pentagon and the Iraq war. When neo-cons led the formation of the public opinion after the 11th September attacks that war with Iraq was a necessary part of remaking the Middle East to prevent future 9/11s, it is very possible that a similar consensus to war with Iraq could develop over the next few years, if not the next few months, about the necessity to confront Iran.

2006-07-15T15:02:00.000-07:00

It could be expected the worst when word came that Hezbollah had killed eight Israeli soldiers near the border and seized two more. Everyone knew that Israeli revenge would be severe. The only question was whether Israel would confine itself to attacks on Hezbollah, or if it would hold Lebanon responsible and launch attacks across the board. Israel chose the latter course. The situation puts the Lebanese government and military in a very hard position. The government simply cannot control Hezbollah. It cannot take it on politically because of its support among Lebanon's Shiite Muslim population.
While Israeli military officials reported that Hezbollah fighters fired more than 100 rockets into northern Israel Thursday in response due to attacks to Lebanon's infrastructures, Israeli Prime Minister Ehud Olmert ordered his army to continue its operations in Lebanon. So No immediate end to the fighting appeared in sight.
It's hard to imagine Lebanese people picking either side, even as they watch their highways, airports and villages being bombed, while groups of Arab tourists escape to Damascus, taking with them the tourism money Lebanon counts on to survive. Besides disliking the Israeli policies in occupied Palestine and its bloody history in Lebanon it makes it harder for them to choose sides between Israel or Hezbollah .It seems that Lebanese people are paying for the Hezbollah's sins.

2006-07-04T12:27:00.000-07:00

Politics simplified:

This little boy goes up to his dad and asks, "what is politics?" The dad says, "Well son, let me try to explain it to you this way...I'm the breadwinner of the family so lets call me... "Capitalism."

Your Mom, she's the administrator of the household so we'll call her "Government." We're here to take YOUR needs, son, so we'll call you "The People." The nanny, well, she works hard all day for very little money so we'll call her "The working class."

And your baby brother.... well we'll call him "the future." Now think about that and see if it makes sense.

So the little boy goes off to bed thinking about what his father has said. Later that night he hears his baby brother crying, so he gets up to check on him. He finds that the baby has soiled his diaper.

So the little boy goes into his parent's room and finds his mother sound asleep. Not wanting to wake her he goes to the nanny's room. Finding the door locked, he peeks in the keyhole and sees his father in bed with the nanny. He gives up and goes back to bed.

The next morning the boy says to his father, "Dad I think I understand the concept of politics now."

The father says "good son, now in your own words tell me what you think politics is all about."

The little boy replies, "Well while Capitalism is screwing the Working Class, the Government is sound asleep: the People are being ignored, and the Future is in deep shit.

2006-06-20T06:21:00.000-07:00

Those who detest war, recognize that nearly every war is the product of mendacious, power-hungry political leaders.
Warlords who make soldiers believe they're fighting for an entirely good and proper cause that they fought only after having been attacked without provocation, that their enemies were vile monsters, and that their victory made the world a better and more hopeful place for all mankind.
Yes, those who have this dangerous tendency in their international thinking to take a holier-than-thou attitude toward other nations. They consider themselves to be more noble and decent than other peoples, and consequently in a better position to decide what is right and wrong in the world.
The exigencies of war necessitated many so-called crimes, and the bulk of the rest could be blamed on the mental distortion which war produced. But they publicized every inhuman act of their opponents and censored any recognition of their own moral frailty in moments of desperation. That is how superpowers go to war to fight fairly.
Iran's nuclear crisis, lost hopes in the world cup, and lot's of new sham conspiracy theories… Iranians are so disappointed, feeling that they're deceived again. Those who chanted down with USA are asking for direct talks. And people are wandering in agony if they have been fooled all these years.

2006-06-08T14:57:00.000-07:00

You find a glimmer of happiness in the world, there is always someone who wants to destroy it.
Where is my fairy? Perhaps she is screwing some superman somewhere…

2006-06-04T14:03:00.000-07:00

No difference it would make if you're an American citizen or an Iranian citizen, you can't generate a slightest change on your government's policies. So I can't catch any reasonable motive to continue discussing who the hell is responsible for the chaos all around the world.

I hate the world sometime. People want to survive but they rather to find their survival in killing, mass slaughtering others in the name of self-defense and their so called truth. Ideologies killed more than any lethal weapons ever created through the history of man kind.

One night making love, and I am aware that you'll be there soon as the love of me for being sparkles your existence, as I'm enjoying the pleasure , your life flashes in my eyes, seeing you tearing some lives apart to achieve a "mission accomplished" in a deadly operation or in a suicide bombing…

Close your eyes my little boy, I won't let anybody make you kill someone else, I won't let you change into some vampire of your own kind…
Put the gun down son. Look into the mirror, this is not what I wanted you to become.

2006-05-29T03:56:00.000-07:00

Get a quick look into life far into the future, in the year 2056:

Last remaining Fundamentalist Muslim dies in the American Territory of the Middle East (formerly known as Iran, Afghanistan, Syria and Lebanon).

Iran still closed off; physicists estimate it will take at least 10 more years before radioactivity decreases to safe levels.

George Z. Bush says he will run for President in 2058.

Fidel Castro announced he will get retired at the age 130 and called the country for a free presidency election.

Scientists have created a device which allows men to change channels without remote control and only by brain waves. So they don't have to hide the remote control between their legs from their wives:D

Baby conceived naturally . . . scientists confused!

85-year, $75.8 billion study: Diet and Exercise are the keys to reduce risk of further heart attacks.

Haditha Horror won the Golden Globe Awards.
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I was watching this movie "proof" and I found this piece that matches the movie!!

A mathematician named Hall
Has a hexahedronical ball,
and the cube of its weight
Times his pecker's, plus eight
is his phone number -- give him a call.

I am in a good mood, life ain't that bad.
Tee rules the world!

Iran the Target of misinformation Campaign

2006-05-24T00:22:00.000-07:00

A story authored by Amir Taheri regarding new legislation in Iran allegedly requiring Jews and other religious minorities to wear distinctive color badges circulated around the world this weekend before it was exposed as false. It was initially published in Friday's edition of Canada's National Post, which ran beside the story a 1935 photograph of a Jewish businessman in Berlin with a yellow, six-pointed star sewn on his overcoat, as required by Nazi legislation at the time. The Post accordingly issued a retraction. Taheri's story, however, was reprinted by the New York Post, which is owned by media baron Rupert Murdoch, and picked up by the Jerusalem Post, which also featured a photo of a yellow star from the Nazi era over a photo of Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad.
Juan Cole, president of the U.S. Middle East Studies Association (MESA), described the Taheri article and its appearance first in Canada's Post as "typical of black psychological operations campaigns," particularly in its origin in an "out of the way newspaper that is then picked up by the mainstream press" – in this case, the Jerusalem Post and the New York Post. A former U.S. intelligence official described the article's relatively obscure provenance as a "real sign of [a] disinformation operation."
In particular, Taheri explained, religious minorities will "have to wear special insignia, known as zonnar, to indicate their non-Islamic faiths. Jews will be marked out with a yellow strip of cloth sewn in front of their clothes, while Christians will be assigned the color red. Zoroastrians end up with Persian blue as the color of their zonnar," he wrote.
While Taheri did not evoke the Nazi precedent in his column, the National Post asked its readers at the end of the piece, "Is Iran turning into the new Nazi Germany? Share your opinion online at nationalpost.com."
In fact, however, the legislation contained "absolutely no mention of religious minorities," according to Hadi Ghaemi, the chief Iran researcher for Human Rights Watch (HRW), who said it included "only generalities with regard to promoting a national dress code and fashion industry that should be subsidized and supported by the government."
The article – and especially its attribution to "human rights groups" – was particularly unfortunate, he told IPS, because "it plays into the hands of the Iranian government that wants to discredit human rights issues that are raised at the international level." The actual legislation was indeed "a troubling development," but not for the reasons cited by the Post, he added, because "its main target is most probably Iranian women."
Other denunciations were quick to follow. One Jewish representative in the Iranian parliament, Maurice Motamed, insisted that color requirements for ethnic minorities had "never been proposed or discussed in parliament," let alone approved. "Such news," he told the Associated Press, "is an insult to religious minorities here." "This report is a complete fabrication and is totally false," he told The Australian newspaper. "It is a lie…."
Two Israel-based Iran experts, Menashe Amir and Meir Javedanfar, also denounced the original reports about the legislation, suggesting in a follow-up article in the Jerusalem Post Monday that they were based on outdated speculation about the impact on non-Muslims of the adoption of Islamic dress standards.
"I think the way these stories played – particularly the references to the Holocaust – was designed to arouse and play upon concerns and accusations that Ahmadinejad is another Hitler who needs to be dealt with accordingly," noted Cohen, who added that the Iranian president's questioning of the Holocaust and aggressive statements about Israel have made such stories more credible.
Resource: Inter Press Service

2006-05-17T14:43:00.000-07:00

You don't really need to do something very brilliant to be mentioned on Time's special issue as one of the world's most influential people.
For example our dear President, he wrote some letters, made some impossible to keep promises to improve our economic lives and fighting corruption. I don't know how much he has been successful but my people are still struggling in the same shit. So how come he has done something significant?
For next year, I'll surprise my mom by having my picture there too. It isn't that hard to fulfill. Say something insane then you're up there…

2006-05-08T03:52:00.000-07:00

As the time passes us it is hard not to believe we are getting closer to the next world war. War on Afghanistan was just the beginning of the story. Bush started his campaign with "War on terrorism" then he continued it with "War for liberty" so what he is going to name "War on Iran"? The Middle East is slated to be the main battlefield of next world war. And no wonder my nation will be in middle of it.
Mr. Bush, are you satisfied to walk so proudly on the cradle of the civilization dehumanizing us, killing us and labeling us as bunch of terrorists? Is that how you help your main stream media picturing us? It is not surprising that there are many americans hating us and blaming us for 9/11.I am against any violence,any action that leads to death of innocent human beings, no matter who they are and no matter where they are from.
Are people like me real threats to the USA? People like me get killed in Iraq everyday. Yes, after 8 yrs of war with Iraq I became to hate them but I figured out gradually that they were people like me. So I aimed my vengeance to people who light the fire of war. It is once said in peace sons bury their fathers and in war fathers bury their sons.
I hate chapter 7 ... I hate nuclear programs. ..I hate everything nuclear…I hate easily fooled Persian diplomats. I hate UNSC….list goes on ..

Ps: When Mr. Straw was reported by BBC saying" talk of a U.S. nuclear strike was 'completely nuts,'" following reports by well-connected U.S. journalist Seymour Hersh that such strikes were under consideration. Denials by members and fellow travelers of the Bush and Blair regimes should of course be considered in the light of similar denials in the run-up to the invasion of Iraq, which proved to have been lies.
Probably this statement cost Mr.Straw his job.

2006-05-01T14:39:00.000-07:00

I don't bother myself to comment on the IAEA's sharply worded report against Iran. I don't want to admit that I was too stupid to think that USA might accept Iran's offer to return the dossier to the atomic agency. I can't blame Iranian officials openly for their noncompliance with IAEA.I wish they were wise enough to back off from this nuclear program before letting things go more on edge between Iran and the international community.
Apparently the America's recent rhetoric against Iran brings to minds the same run- ups to Iraq war.
In a speech in Chicago on April 19, Rice said: "The right to self-defense does not necessarily require a UN Security Council resolution," she said. "We are prepared to use measures at our disposal - political, economic or others - to persuade Iran."
Condi, what're you defending yourself from? Is this just like the old scenario of Iraq? Some none-existed WMD's that you never found?
Anyway, Bush your hands are bloody but you don't see that and one day you will have terrible nightmares, just like every warmonger who ever ruled on this planet.
It really looks like Iran is playing the bad kid who needs some real kick in the ass.
Q: Who plays the big daddy?
A: US of A

2006-04-24T13:12:00.000-07:00

Things are much better when I am lying.No apology needed for mistakes that I make.With lies I earned more respect than I could with honesty .Honesty comes with misery.Cheating eaquals being vigorous .And I am tired of playing the old game.I am tired of saying the same words just to the different people.Telling them they're the only or the're the last..or sometimes the first..it didn't make any difference at all. I tried to win hearts in cost of giving away my soul.I don't feel lonely nor unloved.I am too numb to feel anything.I am going back to my den,where I can think of a day that I will find a better game to play.

Was it really a joke?

2006-04-23T12:15:00.000-07:00

I am going to build this bunker right in the garden in our house!that might save my ass from being killed by bunker-busting bombs..that was a freind's suggestion from america(apparently we were joking! )
One of the Bush's options was to bomb the nuclear facilities .It came to my mind that they're following this policy"To keep you from getting nukes, we will nuke you."
.USA willuse airforce to destroy the main nuclear bases.However,it is not very likely for Iran to get the nuclear weapons this much soon.Not sooner than few years.I don't see why Bush is rushing this much to finish his business about Iran.Is it about retaining the lost popularity in USA?The last poll showed his popularity dropped to 33%.
But since I have read some other articles about Bush's tendecny for putting some efforts on regime change in Iran.I assumed no one in White House ever bothered himself/herself to read some history about Iran.Everyone here remembers the US backed coup in Iran in 1953. That year Iran nationalized its oil industry, rather than allow it to continue being exploited by foreigners, Iran became a target for foreign intervention, and the U.S. did overthrow the democracy of Iran in the summer of 1953. If USA had not intervened in 1953 and crushed Iranian democracy, we might have had ademocracy in the heart of the Muslim Middle East all these 50 years.Everything might be much different now in middle east right now.One of the great example of USA interventions and how it led to the more tension and unstablity.(CIA released the information due to this coup just on 1989) .
I will close my eyes again and I will think about my uneventful life.How long it is going to stay uneventful?let's wait till April 28 UN Security Council deadline for Iran to stop uranium enrichment.

2006-04-17T14:34:00.000-07:00

When the president announced that Iran has successfuly enriched uranium last week , I was so disappointed that there won't be any other way for diplomatic solution for iran's problems with international community.I guess iranian side just made the wrong move which neo-cons wanted so desperately in Bush administration,war option back to the table again.I wonder what are the other options in Bush's contingency planing.
Why I have to suffer the outcomes of someone else's insanity?Life is officially unfair.
When I get turned on with a suntanned face , smell of sweat mixed with cheap cigarette, that is when I am fucking bored...
I was watching "Domino".It wasn't a bad movie but I am not into movies which the girl plays the tough chick thingy.but it just came to my mind while watching this movie,tossing a coin is the only mathemtical fair game that I know...

2006-04-11T14:59:00.000-07:00

When I read about Seymour Hersh’s latest article in New Yorker .I was so shocked when I figured out he was truly talking about using nukes against Iran. He mentioned in his article that White House was planning for a military strike sometime this spring and also alleges that this strike could include the use of tactical nuclear weapons.

Mr. Hersh pointed out that:” efforts by senior military officials to get the administration to eliminate contingency plans for the use of nuclear weapons against specific hardened targets had been "shouted down" by the Pentagon's civilian leadership.”
Are they really going to Nuke Iran? I guess places like the Natanz facility .
The major point in my view is whatever is going to be decided for Iran, the long term outcomes must be taken into consideration. I hope we don’t have second Iraq here. That would be my nightmare.
On the other hand, EU is getting more convinced by USA and Britain that Iran is taking some negative steps in many areas and it’s the time to react.So if EU comes to believe there is no other diplomatic way to reach into agreement with Iran. It may cooperate with US in imposing economical restrictions and sanctions against Iran.
I also read in Washington Post that: the Bush administration is studying options for a military strike as "part of a broader strategy of coercive diplomacy to pressure Tehran to abandon its alleged nuclear development program."That eased my fear of the war from my head a little. Some believe these are all political games to force Iran to stop development of nuclear programs.I am so puzzled. The time is running out for Iran’s government .If they don’t comply with USA and its allies. We’ll live some hell life over here in Iran.
Life would become more stressful for us.Feeling unsecured about future and wondering what will happen.

2006-04-08T14:51:00.001-07:00

Iran:a rouge state?..oooopse no, the worst rouge state!
I am not following the news anymore,it confuses me even more.To hell with what is going to happen.

2006-04-04T12:41:00.000-07:00

This constant hunger to be something more than this is killing me.I am lost or empty?I am so lonely that I seek happiness at any cost...

2006-03-26T13:31:00.000-08:00

Iran is the 4th crude oil producer in the world,so imposing sanctions or taking military actions aginst it will impact the oil price drastically.
But this is not what I am concerend about.I am highly worried of unfortunate Iranians who will suffer the outcomes of sanctions or military actions against Iran.Obviously Bush administration is going the same process they went in Iraq,some more hardliners are hitting the drums of war.They will allege some false propaganda aginst iran that iran has some secret programs to make nuclear warheads or already reached the enrichment .
I am so afraid of future.I have finished school.I am looking for a job.Whatever USA is going to do will have high impact on my future as ordinary citizen of this hell hole.If the security council imposes sanctions.Life will get much harder here.I really don't want things happened to Iraqis happen to my people,we don't deserve that..God nothing is worse than begging for lowest levels of needs as healthy water or healthy food and secutiry.I remember oil for food programs .how many iraqi children died?how many people died because
of shortage of medical care..God damned politicians don't know about what their decisons might do to our lives as simple citizens of these behated countries nor my own countrymen know..fuck'em all
All I want is to have peaceful normal life like everyone else.Dating guys,working and making money,perhaps to see the world if I survive.
Life is box of chocolate,pick one and you'll have cruise missile in your ass..(Forest Gump touring around middleeast)

2006-03-22T12:55:00.000-08:00

Happy persian new year.It is newyear holidays here.I call it nervous Norouwz because everything is so screwed over here.(surf the google news and let me know of what re the top ten news about iran!!hehe)This idle life of mine that I am leading is going to get me into mad house.I don't know when was the last time I looked to myself in the mirror.I really look like a spooky witch now!Why I am still here at my pc while the rest of the world is having fun...pew.
I found this very interesting but who gives the rat's fuck??
US military expenditures approximate those of the rest of the world combined, while arms sales by 38 North American companies (one in Canada) account for more than 60 per cent of the world total (which has risen 25 per cent since 2002).
who is the warlord here?Poor Afghani farmer who is starving to death or American cartel.Please let me know if you fight your tears back when you see a one-leged 10 years old afghani kid begging for food.It is too idealistic to want best of everything for everyone but can't we just make some more room for other humanbeings.
Currently chilling with:"Blvd of broken dreams", by Greenday
*****why I can't find cool pics for my blog anymore??

I need to be doped to sleep!

2006-03-18T12:40:00.000-08:00

I have fucked up my sleeping scheduel again.Mighty Ambein pills.Maybe they help me to sleep for little bit.
After watching the movie "Jarhead" I was surprised to see that in a scene the general(I don't remember his rank)just pointed to a picture and told Marines about Saddam has used Nerve gas on Kurds and Iranians.In other scene,one Marine asked his comrades if they knew what was that war about and asked them if they knew where Saddam got all these weapons.His answer was very surprising to me that he said it with such confidence like:"We did.We gave all those weapons to him."
I am astonished to see Hollywood let these things slip from these movies.Talking about USA or West providing Iraq with weapons against Iran used to be a taboo.

This movie was very typical copy of "full metal jacket"despite it was based on true story.But I like hints like I mentioned above about it.

Life officialy sucks.I am tired of reading the books,watching the movies and living them in my mind..everything seems so delusive.
Currently chilling with:Everything changes by Staind

Sad sad realities

2006-02-18T21:51:00.000-08:00

Casualties from cartoon protestions in islamic countries exceed the casualties from USA operations in Afghanistan and Iraq.(little bit of Sarcasm)Also I have to remind you those people got killed from suicide bombing in Iraq and Palestine.
Last uptodated news: least 11 die in Nigeria Cartoon protestions.
I don't know it is funny or a disaster.
Due to this incident which Dick Cheney was involved,and he caused a injury to someone in a hunting expedition.Media in USA and cartoonists just rip the ass out off him .Such a funny and hilarious TV shows and caricatures and some were too offensive but I didn't hear anyone sued anyone or anyone got killed.We muslims are going the wrong way.Just killing eachother or holding rallies for a cartoon after three monthes of it is publishment date sounds so paradoxical.I don't mean that offending people because of their religion,race and nationality is something to be appreciated.I am profoundly against it.But the point is actually those cartoons are the picture of US muslims in their eyes.Bunch of killers and those who don't know the real way of diplomacy.
Bitter realities of being a citizen of a thirld world country.If we want to stop these tragedies to happen we have to expand our limits.Sad sad things happen and some people lose their lives but they even don't know why and what for.

2006-02-09T06:35:00.000-08:00

Never again will I taste the raindrops.never again...

2006-02-06T04:09:00.000-08:00

I am jealous of certain memories. If I put them into words,they may escape and never return. I don't want them to abandon me too..

2006-02-05T11:43:00.000-08:00

I found this photo very beautiful,the mixture of breath taking sunrise and a woman .

A girl in A Box

2006-02-04T03:20:00.000-08:00

It turned to a beautiful sunny day out of nowhere. and I enjoyed to go out walking alone by myself. It is sometimes so soothing to think and walk. I kind of felt rejected by my friend.He initiated the shit but he didn't want to continue it. We were like" Sally meets Harry" type. You know people who are so emotionally the same but can't get into a relationship. I thought I have something in my heart for him but it seems he didn't feel the same way. Or maybe he knows that I am a swinger type gal, and he all knew about me cheating on my ex boyfriends and he is not going to buy the shit from me again.
Anyway I wish I could put myself in a box and mail myself to somewhere .Let me know if you have any intention of receiving someone in a box(I felt most unwanted ,unloved ,forgotten and behated)

Test

2006-02-03T02:06:00.000-08:00

I had a weblog before but I deleted the blog for some reasons.But blogging seems like a free therapy sessions .I don't have to pay lot's of money to a damned shrink to be heard.At least even if no one gets to read these shit I am putting here ,I feel like I am talking to someone..hehe better than talking to a mirror!!

I will come back soon..