Things are much better when I am lying.No apology needed for mistakes that I make.With lies I earned more respect than I could with honesty .Honesty comes with misery.Cheating eaquals being vigorous .And I am tired of playing the old game.I am tired of saying the same words just to the different people.Telling them they're the only or the're the last..or sometimes the first..it didn't make any difference at all. I tried to win hearts in cost of giving away my soul.I don't feel lonely nor unloved.I am too numb to feel anything.I am going back to my den,where I can think of a day that I will find a better game to play.

Was it really a joke?

I am going to build this bunker right in the garden in our house!that might save my ass from being killed by bunker-busting bombs..that was a freind's suggestion from america(apparently we were joking! )
One of the Bush's options was to bomb the nuclear facilities .It came to my mind that they're following this policy"To keep you from getting nukes, we will nuke you."
.USA willuse airforce to destroy the main nuclear bases.However,it is not very likely for Iran to get the nuclear weapons this much soon.Not sooner than few years.I don't see why Bush is rushing this much to finish his business about Iran.Is it about retaining the lost popularity in USA?The last poll showed his popularity dropped to 33%.
But since I have read some other articles about Bush's tendecny for putting some efforts on regime change in Iran.I assumed no one in White House ever bothered himself/herself to read some history about Iran.Everyone here remembers the US backed coup in Iran in 1953. That year Iran nationalized its oil industry, rather than allow it to continue being exploited by foreigners, Iran became a target for foreign intervention, and the U.S. did overthrow the democracy of Iran in the summer of 1953. If USA had not intervened in 1953 and crushed Iranian democracy, we might have had ademocracy in the heart of the Muslim Middle East all these 50 years.Everything might be much different now in middle east right now.One of the great example of USA interventions and how it led to the more tension and unstablity.(CIA released the information due to this coup just on 1989) .
I will close my eyes again and I will think about my uneventful life.How long it is going to stay uneventful?let's wait till April 28 UN Security Council deadline for Iran to stop uranium enrichment.

When the president announced that Iran has successfuly enriched uranium last week , I was so disappointed that there won't be any other way for diplomatic solution for iran's problems with international community.I guess iranian side just made the wrong move which neo-cons wanted so desperately in Bush administration,war option back to the table again.I wonder what are the other options in Bush's contingency planing.
Why I have to suffer the outcomes of someone else's insanity?Life is officially unfair.
When I get turned on with a suntanned face , smell of sweat mixed with cheap cigarette, that is when I am fucking bored...
I was watching "Domino".It wasn't a bad movie but I am not into movies which the girl plays the tough chick thingy.but it just came to my mind while watching this movie,tossing a coin is the only mathemtical fair game that I know...

When I read about Seymour Hersh’s latest article in New Yorker .I was so shocked when I figured out he was truly talking about using nukes against Iran. He mentioned in his article that White House was planning for a military strike sometime this spring and also alleges that this strike could include the use of tactical nuclear weapons.

Mr. Hersh pointed out that:” efforts by senior military officials to get the administration to eliminate contingency plans for the use of nuclear weapons against specific hardened targets had been "shouted down" by the Pentagon's civilian leadership.”
Are they really going to Nuke Iran? I guess places like the Natanz facility .
The major point in my view is whatever is going to be decided for Iran, the long term outcomes must be taken into consideration. I hope we don’t have second Iraq here. That would be my nightmare.
On the other hand, EU is getting more convinced by USA and Britain that Iran is taking some negative steps in many areas and it’s the time to react.So if EU comes to believe there is no other diplomatic way to reach into agreement with Iran. It may cooperate with US in imposing economical restrictions and sanctions against Iran.
I also read in Washington Post that: the Bush administration is studying options for a military strike as "part of a broader strategy of coercive diplomacy to pressure Tehran to abandon its alleged nuclear development program."That eased my fear of the war from my head a little. Some believe these are all political games to force Iran to stop development of nuclear programs.I am so puzzled. The time is running out for Iran’s government .If they don’t comply with USA and its allies. We’ll live some hell life over here in Iran.
Life would become more stressful for us.Feeling unsecured about future and wondering what will happen.

Iran:a rouge state?..oooopse no, the worst rouge state!
I am not following the news anymore,it confuses me even more.To hell with what is going to happen.

This constant hunger to be something more than this is killing me.I am lost or empty?I am so lonely that I seek happiness at any cost...